The End of May

my mom said this to me
"why are u spending so much on yourself this month?"
and i answered
"well mama, it is my birthday and from myself i received presents on this month"

yeah peeps i did spent a lot this month
i admit that but that just makes me happy
happy to close my heart from sorrows

what did i spent?

1. Tony Roma dinner with good friends
2. Sg Gabai trip and Karaoke session with Mekarians
3. New Crocs for myself
4. New Jacket from Kitchen
5. Kuching, Sarawak with Hani

what more am i planning for the rest of the days in May?

1. pay debts (like i said i over budget this month)
2. splurge on foods (i guess a small cake for me)
3. shoes (which i been wanting to buy for so long)
4. wash the car
5. buy Jeans/Shirts at Dorothy's (still have the discount coupon)

i learned that when u're older, everything u have to do by yourselves
sometimes this is the process of life
once your surrounded by people,
next your alone in it
i envy zac because this year she received 2 cakes
i forget when is the last time i get cakes
but i'm thankful for this life and always adores it
i know i'm always complaining but i just complaining just to make myself better
i feel alone here and the taste of freedom is a bit different here
how different?very much different.

i guess i let myself to think to much
i just hate this part of me
i always over-think stuff
stuff which is not matters
but that's me and i must accept it