Learning to Let Go

i not being myself lately
actually i put those barriers
why? hard for me to explain
but i just did

i guess is about time to face the melody
i've been ignoring it for sometime now
i push you away without solid reasons
i don't know why i have those negative feelings

since that moment i know i am a selfish bitch
just i don't know how to react in such conditions
i know i give a hard time to you too
but my pride and ego are too big for that (at that time)
i'm scared of myself too (honestly)

i think i will let go the feeling
is not cool to have a grudge over someone's relationship
it's not healthy at all (i know that)
just somehow i know i will lose partly my best-friend
yes i have others too but..hard to explain
i miss you so much..i truly do

somehow i would like to apologize to you
for my weird behavior
i never acted this way before
im surprise too myself
just i hope we could be like before
but i guess it a bit hard right now
for some conditions and occasions

i hate losing you but i know you are happy right now
never mind if you don't have time for me later on
just be happy..okay?

hope to be like this again

missing those moments ::HAPPY MOMENTS::