Commitment Freak

it is time of the year
where i think myself pathetic as usual
me and commitment is not a normal word to put it together
i'm scared of commitment
yes! i have to admit it myself

i freak out everytime i'm too near to it
i guess i'm thinking to much (sometimes)
or actually it runs in the family
marriage somehow is not a "great" success in my generation
or i'm only seeing the negative impact (ONLY!)

but yeah i do have someone in mind
someone i wanted to date with
wanted to end just like my two besties
but another part of me
am i kidding myself. will i end up my life that fast
will that person is the one.
many things is playing in my mind
i guess i do SCARED of COMMITMENT TOO MUCH

i am great in meeting new friends.
but to be more than a friends, i will think twice
i know i'm easily fallen for a guy
but i am not happy with myself cause i think it will backfired me later
too me, serious r/ship means big trouble
hahah like a kid. i know
just sometimes i need to take smaller steps before big ones
do pray for me. hehehe.