Sunday, 16 September 2007

not a great feeling

to be honest i'm not in a great condition
lately my mood swings fast
faster even i dont notice myself
i get mad easily then i can be friendly in a blink of the eyes
many do notices with these changes
but greatful that my friends understand it
my rumet even know how to handle if i'm in a badmood
how??
just ignore me and it will be all fine


it's been rainy lately
swipe away all the pains and sorrows
alot of things has been happening
the fun thing and really sad event
just sometimes human are the most complicated thing to understand
but there are unspoken guidelines between them
unwritten rules in relationships and friends
hard to describe in words, only the hearts could understand
but many people deny those feelings
i DO deny those feelings even now
even i shouldnt remember the past
but is hard to make it done but it is easy to speak without thinking about it


really hate people that always say something that they dont really understand it themselves
just because it is facts and realistic but the hearts make it difficult
just sometimes people need to thinks before they speak
if they dont think before hand, later it will end up bad
you know karma will act in funny ways
ways that people dont think it will turn up to be
ways that other people thinks its funny but to some people its cruel
our words would kill ourselves in the naked of time
just wait and see


not until it happened
we would realise it
but when the time has come it is too late for us to turn back
at that time you just need to continue life
pretending, faking, acting
it is part of our roles in lives
that time your words is against yourselves
you wont feel the pains unless it happens to you


thus, before every words that came out of the mouth
you need to think twice or trice
or it will soon be haunting up your life
people do remember all the words
all the cruel words and acts
how it makes others sad and thinking about their miserable life
thinking that other people do hate us


just you need to understand more
if you are not in the situation
do think what will happened if you are in that situation
what do you want people to react at that situation
act maturely and think others feeling too
dont talk bossy like that thing wont happen to you
just you need to consider others
that all that the person asked for
comfort him/her and talk from heart-to-heart


now, when it happened back to you
you changed because you know it is wrong
it is wrong last time
and it is still wrong this time
but if you just had not say any words/acts that others could remember
it will be different now
alot more different
but people do remember
human beings do remember the bads rather then the good ones
i dont know why

14 bottles of thought:

Anonymous said...

xpaham.
tp kan.

banyak nye nasihat!
ngee!

botolbiru said...

hahah
xpyh phm pon..
just luahan perasaan
hahaha how's life
jarang online skram dear
mane kam meghilangkan diri nih

Anonymous said...

hi mizaaaaa... hahaha xP

hey met, neh muhasabah diri sempena ramadhan ke ape neh??
hahahhha

this is a very expressive post. :)

p.s. my rumet is Incredible hulk when shes maddddd XP

Hani said...

haha. susah nye nk tgk hazirah potpet cmnehhhhhhhhhh.

bes tak bole put everything into writing. haaa!

ps mieza: amishu!

botolbiru said...

met:yeah muhasabah diri la..
alot of thing need to be done and all the wrong doing to be done right..not hulk met..not that scary i guess

zac:"bes tak bole put everything into writing. haaa!"
ape maksud ko nih??

Anonymous said...

alamak!
hye hazie.
hye raje.
hye zac.
mish u guys much much!

muhasabah + potpet = new brand of hazie !
xp

botolbiru said...

mizah:

"muhasabah + potpet = new brand of hazie !"

what do you mean a brand new me..
just u dont know dis side of me..
not all the time i potpetpotpet
just when i need too, i express my feelings..haha now you know me better i guess

Anonymous said...

dearrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !
dun get me wrong !
we used to gelak-gelak together.
it just i tak sangka it is you.
penuh dgn kata-kata nasihat !
fresh !
sungguh !
tak tipoo !
8)

botolbiru said...

hahah fresh??
hahah gelak is something fun in life..i wont missed out to laugh out loud with my friends..
friends are too important in my life.others things too are important to me..
but for me it is hard to find someone that could really understood you..man i miss my childhood friends..i miss the people i grew up with

Gagak Putih said...

naper la my comment smlm tak kluar...huhuhu....miss your fren jer ke???me tak miss ker??hehehe...

botolbiru said...

sayang~~

i miss you too la
it's unwritten in the post but u know i do misses you..
heheheh

luv ya

Gagak Putih said...

yeker nie???
bole cayer ke???
so apa bukti that u miss me???
hehehehe...

Husna said...

if only we could turn back time, then all the words spoken and all the things done won't matter.

because we know we could undo and edit everything - just like how we use Microsoft Word.

but heck, it is impossible.

i love this post! :)

p/s - aku pergi memuhasabah diri -_-"

botolbiru said...

Microsoft Word is everything when u want to edit the text..

but if we can undo our life, than we wont learn anythig from it..

we wont feel anything special from it too cos we alredi decide it before and changed it after, no surprises, no enemies, no sadness, no negative emotions...

and if no negative emotions,our life can be DULL, DEAD, nothing interesting no more..

and we will not look for our future but we only think of the past and how to undo it