I Wish I Could Save It

after work just now
there is a wild bird injured at my office stair case
i felt pity, so me and my aunt
try to find a vet which opened at 7.30pm
most of the vet here closed at 7.00pm

we drove to, i dont know where
and lucky us, the vet is still not closed
the vet said that he will put the bird to sleep
because the cut is too deep
and he thinks that the bird could not survive long
too stop the birds suffering, we said to him
"do what's best for it"

this is my first time
being in this situation
u know i'm not an animal lover
but i felt pity for it

p/s: about magh's wedding, i will blog it later. it will be a long post with pictures.but i still dont have the time YET!

Double Triple Bad Luck in April

today is my dooms day
it has all ended at 12.45pm
i came to the lab at 8.30am and i got to present at 12.15pm
how lucky i am =(
while waiting my turn, me and yoi gossiping for the latest news
hahaha the good old days
man i never thought that i will be that close to yoi

this month it started with cheer and laughter
dinner batch for Jan04 and Capoiz bbq
later on, wuhuu and sungkai trip with my girlfriends

than, started my series of bad luck
one after and another
it just heart breaking for me
but i guess Allah just trying to see how strong am i
i learn that i'm not that strong after all
but i had some of my feelings kept inside me
i learn the true colors of people
i learn that keeping a secret may lead to happiness to myself

now, i so tired but i can't sleep
i think i will sleep early because i only had 3hours of sleep
just finished my laundry and clearing up my study table
it had been a hectic month
but at last i can relax a bit before final exams

about exams, i will be finishing 31st may
yeah the very last paper in UTP will be my paper
u guys may say that i will start my exam a bit late from others
guess what
my first paper is also the very first paper in UTP
ahahah i guess i'm lucky because UTP did want me to stay a bit longer

/me looking at the bright side

::of to watch some series::

congratzzzzzz ^_____^

writing this post at seema's computer
out of suddent i cannot access my acc from my lappy
damn damn damn anyhow here is goes

firstly congratulation to my little sister
she got straight A's in UPRS
without any serious study she still manage to pull it
i know i'm in big trouble because she will asked me something later
what should i give her??hurm hurm hurm ideas anyone
and for my mom, she still got to see hanna's (PMR) and hisham's (SPM) result
hope they did well but if not, with hannis result it will do
i mean at least hannis performed or who knows what will happened
my mom could get crazy if non of her kids score in exam..MOTHERS

this is my little sis..her name is hannis with double N..and here is her friends at her class after receiving the results..man kids nowaday are crazy..hahahah

and secondly today is my roommate birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAJA SYAZWANI
being her rumet for almost 4 years already
many ups and downs, laughter and sadness in that room
we even went for our internship in the same company
that is a coincident, we don't plan at all
she is my partner in watching movies
love having a day out with her, without any plans and money $$$
we just drove to the cinema and buy popcorns and watch it
any movies will do..HORROR and COMEDY is a priority
but usually we are LATE for the movies but we don' care
the memories that i cherish and we did some stupid together..not always
anyhow, below is the pic of her cake and her present from us to her

penguin!!isn't it cute..people could give suggestions on his name cause the penguin didn't have a name yet

on the cake it says "SELAMAT HARI TUA RAJE!!" and she freaks out thinking that she is already 21 years old..hahaha met relax

that just about it..thinking of sleeping right now
tired tired
got another 3 papers to go
..Tuesday (CE), Friday (MS), Monday (IB)..
then need to discuss with the SV about the FYP project
my head is going to explode thinking about it..
goodnight everybody..sweeeet dream

having trouble writing this post and many thing happened during the process..the duration of writing this post and get it posted is at least one hour and half..dont ask me why

semester JULY 2007

finally the last class for this sem had finished
looking forward all this time to enjoy more time for myself

less us go back to the last 8 hours ago~~

8.30am

- woke up and found out that jakek has not finished the project
- ned having a nerve break down because we need to present the product

9.00am

- ready for the presentation, but having doubt that we will present it during evening
- waiting jakek at building 2
- suddently everyone have a stomach ache problem

10.00am-12.00pm

- in the last class of MULTIMEDIA SYSTEM
- not yet present the product to mr yew
- collecting hints/points for MS final exam

12.00pm-2.15pm

- eat lunch at cafe v3
- download some series, F1 races
- sleep before MS presentation

2.30pm-3.15pm

- fast presentation on the product (goreng2 jer)
- overview the lab assignment (mr yew didnot scold us for not finishing up the assignment..hheheh)

3.30pm-4.00pm

- went to see ms khalidah, our CE lecturer
- to settle our presentation marks because we have a miscommnication within the groups
- ohhhh...one vietnames girl claim that we did not contribute anything in the project..hello!!!we did our part and send those documentations on time..YOU did not told us that u change the presentation slot...
- and some more, every meeting, u guys plan the time without asking us(me+ned).every meeting clashed with our class and you said we did not come to the meeting on purpose..go to H**L.

4.00pm-4.30pm

- feeling uncomfortable because ned thinks anne is mad
- "leh masuk bilik senyap sket x!" get scolded by someone
- chatting with ned using gtalk
- thinking about the oral presentation slides
- wanting to watch the latest episod of DHW
- still typing the stupid post

ok enough of today
suddently this list makes me mad again
feeling hopeless more and more
i always need to comfort others feeling
people do find me when they are in troubles or no one else to talk too
thank you for treating me as if i'm useless
just hoping that next sem wont be as worst as this sem

NEW LAYOUT

so guys what do you think of the new layout
any comment about it
did i need to improve in certain areas
do give some comments and i WILL think about it

and i just finished TWO tests yesterday
this morning after Strategic Management class i will collect my intern result
i do have butterflies in my stomach right now
i was hoping it wasn't that BAD
at least I receiced an A- is ok
but i guess it is too much to asked
i mean whatever the result is i need to live with it
no turning back but going forward in life

hoping for the best
hoping it will be a bright day as usual
hoping a lot of thing to turn back to normal
hoping to cherish life more

not a great feeling

to be honest i'm not in a great condition

lately my mood swings fast

faster even i dont notice myself

i get mad easily then i can be friendly in a blink of the eyes

many do notices with these changes

but greatful that my friends understand it

my rumet even know how to handle if i'm in a badmood

how??

just ignore me and it will be all fine

it's been rainy lately

swipe away all the pains and sorrows

alot of things has been happening

the fun thing and really sad event

just sometimes human are the most complicated thing to understand

but there are unspoken guidelines between them

unwritten rules in relationships and friends

hard to describe in words, only the hearts could understand

but many people deny those feelings

i DO deny those feelings even now

even i shouldnt remember the past

but is hard to make it done but it is easy to speak without thinking about it

really hate people that always say something that they dont really understand it themselves

just because it is facts and realistic but the hearts make it difficult

just sometimes people need to thinks before they speak

if they dont think before hand, later it will end up bad

you know karma will act in funny ways

ways that people dont think it will turn up to be

ways that other people thinks its funny but to some people its cruel

our words would kill ourselves in the naked of time

just wait and see

not until it happened

we would realise it

but when the time has come it is too late for us to turn back

at that time you just need to continue life

pretending, faking, acting

it is part of our roles in lives

that time your words is against yourselves

you wont feel the pains unless it happens to you

thus, before every words that came out of the mouth

you need to think twice or trice

or it will soon be haunting up your life

people do remember all the words

all the cruel words and acts

how it makes others sad and thinking about their miserable life

thinking that other people do hate us

just you need to understand more

if you are not in the situation

do think what will happened if you are in that situation

what do you want people to react at that situation

act maturely and think others feeling too

dont talk bossy like that thing wont happen to you

just you need to consider others

that all that the person asked for

comfort him/her and talk from heart-to-heart

now, when it happened back to you

you changed because you know it is wrong

it is wrong last time

and it is still wrong this time

but if you just had not say any words/acts that others could remember

it will be different now

alot more different

but people do remember

human beings do remember the bads rather then the good ones

i dont know why

my lappy + the family

yeah it has been 8 weeks in UTP

and suddently my laptop crashed last week

it crashed with all my hopes and loves with it

hahahahahhahahahahha

but hey about the crashed, i'm not joking

it crashed big time

cannot format back the hard disk and i need to buy a new one

and the new one cost me rm210

thanks to jepar cz taking care my lappy

thanx to papa for paying the hard disk

you know your daughter already broke so i need your help to pay it

my dad always know when i call him due to money problems

i dont have any other purpose to talk to him accept money

and hurmm i think i call him to inform i'm going back home

and asking whether his kind enough to send me back to tronoh

well i dont have gossip to share with my dad and my mom

so i seldom call them

i know i not that good but still sometimes i do call them just to say hi

i'm just not like hisham,who call my mom every weeks

hisham also called me..like why do he calls me?

i always have a bad feeling if hisham calls me

i cant talk to him that long cz i'm afraid of him sitting in the hall doing the SPM

i'm wishing him all the best for his exam but i scared to death if something goes wrong

not i'm praying for it just i dont like to see my brother having to struggle

and still fails in the SPM

i dont think he is strong enough to face those facts..

just i always think that what i did, my bro+sis are not that able to do because i do fails along the way but always have strengh to stand up back

like hanna, i know my mom is worried to death for her

hanna different from all of us

hisham is good in sports

hannis is good with the theories

but hanna, she only knows gossiping and searching for hot guys

i mean she's ok in her studies IF she studies

if not she can say bye bye to her academic life

what am i talking about..

at first i want to talk about the life after the crashed of my lappy

but just think about my family i makes me want to write about them

hannis has already finished UPSR

so my mom did not care whether she's sleeping late or watch tv like 24hours

but hannis sometimes must stick to the schedule because of HANNA

i mean hanna cannot be distracted

if not she dont want to study or just pretending to study

but i was hoping hanna do work hard because PMR is just around the corner..

all the best to HANNA and HISHAM

p/s:my mom is just like a crazy person right now....UPSR (done), PMR and SPM

craving for water supplies

yeah due to some of the maintainance or just the construction at the main gate of utp
i dont know which one is true but it is already the 3rd day xde air
the first day: morning, bath at one of the house in block K
yeah me and ned just enter the first house which we came across and straight to the bathroom
i felt relieve to bath that day because it is a hot day
man then at night, me+zac+raje+ain+ned+mar when and bath at masjid
we managed to get ourselves in zac's KANCIL
six of us..hahhaha

yeah alot of people (gurls) bath there
the shower is awesome but they only have 4 showers there
so we need to queue up for our turn
i took my sweet time to clean up myself
because i had a feeling that there wont be any water later
FYI, most of the girls there cannot shut their mouth
i mean you are in the mosque for haeven sake
do respect the people who are praying there
be ashame of yourselves

later, we eat at tropika
we do eat alot (READ)
our tables full of plates and water
i mean we do enjoy every session of eating together

later that morning, the water is back but in a small amount
i had a stomach ache
hard for me to walk to the classes
after the 1st class, ned accompanied me to the clinic
the doctor said i have "angin" i my stomach
i wonder, i eat last night but still i get "air" in the stomach
hurm hurm hurm

now?i have not bath yet
planning to carry the water from the kitchen to the toilet

update:
just came back from class (4.28pm)
is raining but still dont have water in the house
you must wondering whether i bath this morning..
the answer....








YES!!
at the mosque
with zac+ned+raje
having a blast time there
enjoying every drop of water
now??
going to continue to read HARRY POTTER
yeah i do manage to read it until chapter ONE!!
hahahahah but i have to forget that book for awhile
my roomate yg "chumel" itu sedang bace
~~~lalalalal~~~