What I Did Last October

i being wanting to update here
but most of the time i dont have the mood of typing it
but as for today, i want to cheer myself up
by listing all the memories,
somehow it will bring me out from my miserable life right now.

1. my 2nd cousin's baby boy
-> adorable for the age of 4days


2. Tun Dr Mahathir Musical Theater
-> my cousin got 2 free tickets & the seat was SUPERB but we need to be "formal". All the VIP's are in front of us which is SUcks. People all around keep staring at us because we managed to get the "GOOD" seats among the higher ranking people

3. for this part, is my crazies day of all. i attend most of the events (7.30am-10.30pm), until i am sick. the next day i'm in bed all day long. TIRED

i. KEBARA Bowling at Sunway Pyramid (7.30am-11.30am)
-> gives support to my branch. yeah! i'm always the pom-pom girl. go back home to change attire for the next event.


ii. Soraya BIG day -> meet all my UTPians again. especially Asma. owh i wish Dayah was there too. but So, you looked so gorgeous.


iii. "home-warming"(again?) at Chaong's house


iv. continue at easting feast at Mina's House (delicious!)


v. my last pit-stop of the day is hanging out with Farhana. we went to a so-call-musical-theater-miming-show. anyhow the trio are awesome, and wish to get to see it AGAIN!


4. Treasure Hunt KEBARA at Gambang, Kuantan


i know life had been hectic some of the times. but i prefer that way to keep myself happy at times. just sometimes, my body couldn't take it which at the end of it i felt sick. but i enjoyed every moment together with you and wish we could create more HAPPY TIME together AGAIN!

New People More Fun

my group mate during induction at bagan lalang, sepang

my gosip+mengarut2 partners

Quick Review 2009

Weddings/Engagements
1. Intan's Wedding - near her house
2. Magh Farah's Wedding - Tanah Merah
3. B's Engagement - AU2 @ Kramat
4. Safiah Hanim's Wedding - Dewan Felda @ KL
5. Mat Jun's & Alia's Wedding - Kuala Kedah & Pendang
6. Kak Ila's Wedding - Putrajaya Hall (Prescient 16)
7. B's Wedding - Dewan Semarak
8. Akub's Wedding - Melaka

Holiday Trips
1. Kelantan - Tanah Merah & Kota Bahru
2. Terengganu - Pulau Redang & Kuala Terengganu
3. Sarawak - Kuching
4. Penang - Batu Feringgi and Penang Town
5. Kedah - Alor Star (balik kampung)

Something New
1. New Job
2. New Life Style (back at my parents house)

I Just Don't Know

ok guys,i got it
but yes i already asked to postpone it
maybe next month(but still waiting the approval)
so that's it. i'm in no one's land no more
hope they consider it even 2 weeks late

but other than that
so in love with Michael Buble voice
i just bought his album yesterday
(without no reasons)
it so happened the store turn up his song
i'm so in love with his voice before
but never really thought of him whenever in the cd's shop
so yes! i purchase his latest cd and for me its worth it

for me, michael buble and james morrison is in the same page
love them so much
yes i was planning to buy james morrison cd but end up with other
but it worth the money i tell you
even i just listen half of his album, i'm so loving it

hopefully i could managed to listen all
(wanting to buy a mp4 soon)

Let's Move Forward

everyone is one step ahead
and yeah i need to step forward too
each day i heard someone is married, engaged or bla bla bla
happy to hear all these great news
congratulation to my friends.
hope my day will come too (sooner? don't know)

now i'm starting to freaking out!

Quick Update

1. alot of work need to be done before this weekend
2. thursday need to rush back to KL (not yet packing)
3. next month my cousin is getting engage
4. couldn't wait for next month trip
5. still in love with Super Junior
6. about to go to sleep right now
7. pressure at work is killing me softly
8. the blue sky+good friends this weekend makes me happy through out the week
9. strictly in budget. money is a BIG PROB this month.
10. happy birthday hisham. u are 19 this year

No Worries

i guess last night i was in a huge emotions
for lack of reasons, i bust out loud how i felt
thanks for being concern
i think i will be all right

i just need to step up with these games
(auditing and human behaviour)
i never thought that working in small environment
can brutally abused your mental
i guess i'm not quite prepare for that

but i guess i will have a fall back plan
those plans includes holiday trip, meeting friends
and also pampering myself
i guess having a cossy dinner by myself sound great now
i have to do what i have to do right now

living in boarding school doesn't help much in this life process
being around people 24/7 do make me comfortable with people
living alone it just makes me feel lonely but i have to coop with it
right now, i MUST make myself comfortable with my own self
now is the-me-time, i have to try my best

yeah strive for the best
u need to make yourself happier each day
i guess i'm ON with the friends-searching-online
sounds pathetic, not as pathetic as my life now
HAHA

I Wish I Could Save It

after work just now
there is a wild bird injured at my office stair case
i felt pity, so me and my aunt
try to find a vet which opened at 7.30pm
most of the vet here closed at 7.00pm

we drove to, i dont know where
and lucky us, the vet is still not closed
the vet said that he will put the bird to sleep
because the cut is too deep
and he thinks that the bird could not survive long
too stop the birds suffering, we said to him
"do what's best for it"

this is my first time
being in this situation
u know i'm not an animal lover
but i felt pity for it

p/s: about magh's wedding, i will blog it later. it will be a long post with pictures.but i still dont have the time YET!

Swimming Lesson

//i has been three(3) posts back to back.update on my life.having internet connection this week

just came back from swimming
as usual i have the stamina issue
but i like watching the kids learn to swim
it flash back my memory learning how to swim years ago

that's one particular kid that caught my eye
his name is jason
his learning the breast/frog stroke
he could swim but not yet have the confident
each time he take his breathe, as if it was his last breathe
it amusing to see how determine he is
to go from 1 point to another point

there is one instruction is cute
after swimming for a few laps.
i stop an look around
i could see that instructor but than i realize
he is teaching my aunt
is funny to see a grown-women learn to swim
the instructor patiently instruct what to do next

meanwhile, i was at the side talking to another instructor
he said that i could swim and was impressed
but yes, i surely have stamina issues
he asked when did i learn how to swim
after talking for a few minutes, my aunt finished

we went straight home
stop to buy lunch and dessert
magh message asking when i;m coming to Mid
i guess there is some communication breakdown
where no one inform me about the lunch date
but never mind, its okay
will be meeting magh next 2 weeks, insyaallah

lesson learn: when i have kids someday, i will make sure that i enroll them in swimming class. it is easier to learn when u are small rather than u are 30++.

Can Best Friend be Your Life Partner?

**note:it will be a long post and just a thought to myself**

someone asked me about this recently
and this morning i heard about it
at hot fm "AM Krew"
what do you think about it?

for me if you could find bestfriend and life partner in one person
you are lucky because it hard to find one
but for me it just hard to find someone like that
maybe i had a bad experiance with it
bestfriend should stay as bestfriend only
but if later years i end up with my bestfriend
i guess i'm wrong either way
but for now i think bestfriend should remains as bestfriend

it started after i finished school
i'm closed with Z
i felt comfortable talking to him
it just felt that i found someone in common
we play miskol every 3 seconds
it is interesting to have a conversation every 3secs
and we talk stuffs; comics,rugby,girls,boys,etc etc
and one day it just end up somewhere

after a few months
something happened
i receive calls from his secret admirer
then he lost his phone
and then the major point of it
he break with me during my examination weeks
and a few days from my birthday
man, it is a big hit for me
but lucky my grades is not that bad

after breaking off with me thru friendster
3 months later, he come back as a "bestfriend" to me
he acts normally and forgetting the past
i guess i just need to forget it
but what he did is mean
and yeah after he dumps me
he come back to me to ask for my help
what is the favor he ask?
he ask me to help him to tackle a girl
how could that be?
and yeah, to prove that i'm over him
i help him in every way

i guess that we are mean to be bestfriend
but how he ended the r/ship
it just unbelieveable
to be honest,right now
me and him are not friends no more
it just end like that
ackward to meet or have conversation with him
i know i lost a bestfriend but what end just end

now i'm happy with someone else
just to say that bestfriend is not a good candidate to be life partner
your either married them or break the friendship
eventho the friendship is not end
but relationship is not the same as before

but i do have friends which endup with their bestfriends
and they are happily together
they have advantages in knowing each others
but anyhow, who ever we end up with aka married
it is your choice and be happy with it

Other's Blog

every morning i will read other's blog
just to keep updating myself with their progress
but most of them are changing their link
(which i'm not updating my list yet)
and most of the blogs is my batch mate in utp

i guess they are facing the reality now
we(the it geeks)has face that reality almost 6 months now
life is not that beautiful afterall
but it is just another phase that u need to challenge urself
last few days, the jan04(engineering) celebrate their unofficial grad within themselves
BBQ,late night movie,late night suppers,hanging around each other for the last time
face it, after this u have your own life which doesnot involve much of ur college friends
maybe for a year or two u still keep in touch with them
what will happened after that,
u still keep in-touch but u have other priorities

the cycle of life will go on for ever
like our buddies in school
we nearly forget about the moments together bcz they hardly in our path now
i do.some of my ttdi frens, i do feel ackward when i'm around them
i'm a stranger to them or with them
but later on, u will put those feelings aside cz u now, u are one of them in ur past life, and you want to continue being friends with them eventho u have nothing much in common now.

i felt lucky bcz i have a few ttdi friends which i'm closed till now
i guess all of us make an affort to hangout once awhile together
updating our lives and all

i'm happy that all my friends are happy
and i pray for their success in the future
have a great family and remain our friendship

p/s: it is too sentimental to read their post right now.everyone is changing their path and after 5years together it is hard to look forward, but that's life.face it no matter what happened.

Pathetic Me. I Know

i know zac and the others will say this a normal thing for me
but i dont know i just,boredsome make me desperately need a friend

i played bowling(AGAIN) yesterday
this time i played 2 games instead of one bloody game
i just think that i need more time on the lane
suddently the counter-person give me the middle lane
next to my lane, some workers are playing a few games

they look at me playing and makes me unconfortable
so basically my performance yesterday is the worst ever
i mean i could not even a strike
and i'm stuck with 1 pin
when i do manage to get a spare, they will cheer for me

for me,they play every day, so they have the technique
they play with a spin ball
but later one of them talked to me
ask me whether i'm still student
and yes i am a student..hahah but i'm doing my practical there
hahahaa and i have no friends,that's why i'm playing alone
he showed me a few tricks but said to me "kalu baling pon bola senget, xyah la nk spin2 bola,konfirm masuk longkang gak.hahaha"
than i said to him whateva la, i just want to know how he does it

then, he asked me to play bowling later
i mean if he's off-duty and i'm playing on that day
he said he knows how it feels to play alone and everyone is watching
i said, if the day comes,i'll think about it
because i'm okay playing alone by myself

and peeps,i know how pathetic am i
and met u can say whatever u want to say
saye redha aje~~

One Bad Day

i nearly late to office today
READ: NEARLY!!
i had to punch card at 8.30am or before that
then suddently, she wants to change her clothes.
like wth?
i'm late and she needs to change.
than, her car ran out of petrol
quick pit-stop at the oil station
not that quick either
she put full-tank and it is a mercedes
haih (my heart start beating faster already)

i had to run, like it is the end of my life
lucky me(that's the only luck today),
i managed to arrive excatly at 8.30am
no RED or penalty for today

than, my computer hang and slow
i'm not in the mood to have these slwoness in life just yet
then i read someone status
that status totally break-my-heart
ain knows it all, really heart-breaking

than the work flow never stop
it is early of the month
so the accounts need to close
during lunch, i've been left alone
than i felt on my ass and wet myself
half of my body are soaked with dirty water
and my hp somehow a bit damaged
the speaker is somehow broken somewhere(enough said)

than after lunch, my acc system give me problems
i don't know how, but my comp date is in year 2036
something went wrong somewhere
i had a breakdown for 30minutes
than helps from the HQ

than i could see the lights
cz the person who break my heart talk to me
i though they are ignoring me,
but maybe i just thinking everything negatively from start
thanks for reminding me that i need to think positive
and thanks for not laughing out loud with my incidents

i guess i could see a brighter light from the next path
everything is becoming much more better than just now
i hope that this light with enlighten me till the end
but people hoping but sometimes faith do happen to people
look at the country who have break from tradition
now people have change and their believe might change also


edit: i talk to soon. i guess i'm just in a bad luck mood/bad mood.what ever you guys. you can just discussed it and tell me the end results.i might follow the decision.(later i will cool down, but right now, forget it)

Student Card

yes people, i'm still using my student card
for me that's the trick how i less spend my money

yesterday i finished work at 6.50pm
while driving, i was thinking where should buy my dinner
suddently i drove myself to JJ Seremban 2
than after i park my car, i straight walk myself to the bowling alley
i mean it is more than 3 months i wanting to play at least 1 game
i just couldn't resist anymore
i had to play at least one

in seremban, before 8pm u still can used student card
i've decided to used mine
nobody knows that i'm not a student no more
so the game cost me RM5 only
RM3 for 1 game and Rm2 for shoes
after playing for only 10mins (read:10 minutes)
i've went to Delifrance to buy some sandwiches
i took me less than an hour before i reach home

at home, i had to fed my aunt's cat
and yet i still managed to watch FRIENDS on time
yeah how desperate am i to play bowling ALONE
but anyhow,after that i slept early
what time my aunt come back, who know..

off to work now =D
yes zac, i would love to go to Genting with you
roller-coster here i come (i hope i could go this trip this time)

15 Facts About Me

Here is the list.

1. Love dark chocolate. The bitter the better.

2. I'm a copy-cat person. Love to let others think than burden myself. Eg. order food

3. I'm a slow eater. People finish eating first than me.

4. Favourite word, "ikot la", "suka hati la", "apa-apa aje"

5. People always think that I can't swim due to my body shape. Don't judge a person by their body type.

6. I'm too lazy to boil the water, to make hot drink. Rather drink plain water.

7. Love bags. Bag Bag Bag

8. Can sleep in any conditions. Dark, bright, quite, noisy, just name it

9. Always a victim to my friends. Am I that weak?

10. Desperately wanted to take scuba diving license.

11. Scared in having a serious relationship. Being friends are better for me.

12. If I said I don't like a person before I know them well (first impression), they will turn to be my closest friends.

13. If I'm not in a good mood, better leave me alone.

14. I'm a nerd back than. Wearing a thick glass and wore braces. And I know I'm a nerd now.

15. People says that I'm childish for my own age. They won't believe I'm the eldest in the family.

I am a boring person. So sorry if you read through the post. Nothing interesting about me.

Amazingly

firstly about work
not as pressure as yesterday but life is tought
i mean i had a lot of works need to be done
write cheques, update the punch cards, settle the acc
i just worked 2 days and yet i dont have time of my life there
1st day went back nearly 9pm and today 8pm
i guess if i'm going back with her, i must do alot of OT
even at home, i help her type some of the reports.
and yet many people complained having a lot of work
they haven't see me doing all the stuff

(the GM is here today and the staff meeting is something weird for me. i guess all the probs that they facing can be settle without the involment of the higher position..CULTURE SHOCK for me too..zac u are not alone..hahahahhaha)

enough about work

home (seremban)
i'm staying with my aunt
all the expense is on her
but if she is not around, i have to go back alone
and she got 3 kittens
i think i can play with cats
later i post the pics to prove that i'm brave enough to hold cats
that's all for tonight
need to get beauty rest because tomorrow is another day =D

Catching Up with Time

i know i have all the time in the world
but something is missing
don't tell me to get a JOB
i'm trying to find a suitable job
i'm trying real hard

but i don't know, maybe after living away from home
i want to do all the things that i've missed the recent years
the gossiping sessions, bowling games, hangouts, etc etc
i know you are worried about me
but u guys must understand,
living in Terengganu and Perak is not that fun
it is fun if you have all your girlfriends and stuffs

anyway, what i have been doing back at home
besides going to "usrah" with my mom and dad
i visit my sis in kuala klawang,
watch p. ramlee the musical, beauty and the beast musical.
and this friday, most probably going to support our former schoolmates
in one on the theater "air con"..never seen the advertisement though

craving to go Sunway Lagoon
i want to play with water..aaaa
if not i'm dying to go to Genting Highlands,
just to play the roller-coaster..
okok off to finding a FUN job..haha

later..

Baking at Home

people says that it is boring to stay at home
i agreed but it has been a long time since i have all the time in the world just to stay in it without thinking about studies or anything related to academics
i baked during my "holidays"

what did i bake?
choc orange and chocolate chips cupcakes
i do help my mom to do some "cucur badak"

here is the proof.

freshly bake from oven =)

"cucur badak" which has been frozen

Midsem Holiday

now i'm holiday~~
shopping is heaven in KL
catching up with people here
nothing much..
later i update more
enjoying the holz rather then thinking about FYP
FYP sucks

true friend?

in your opinion, do true friend exist?

for me, true friend do exist but hard to find
i found my true friend just after i entered MRSM
i mean i cherish and appreciate them more..
MORE THAN EVER..i could put it that way..
they are there when i need them
a friend that will laugh and cry together
even when they are far far away right now,
they do check up on me from time to time

it is hard nowaday to fine that PERFECT friend
i mean there are alot requirements that people will look at you
do you have the looks, the money, the power, to be friend with them
they treat you nice just because for their own benefits
but if you find someone who could accept the way you are, than you are LUCKY

friends today is just like a group of people you social with everyday
they are there to celebrate everything with you
but off they went if something bad happened to you
but do they always left you behind with all the sadness??
some may have the heart to stay back but most of them wont look back at all

i maybe a friend to anybody out there,
but sorry if i'm just being "the friend" to you
i stop trusting people that much
it just stopped, even i tried not too
maybe we could start all over again later


so my question is do you really believe in true friend?